Letter of regret


I was so scared that you'd stop loving me that I couldn't notice that you never did.
I'm sorry.....
  • Current Location: Angelfield
  • Current Mood: Longing
  • Current Music: "To you" by Azu

Original story

I fell for him at fifteen.

It wasn't fast, nor at first sight...  it was not Cupid's magical and chemical touch of life.

It was slow, it was uncomfortable...

I used to like his eyes... black as night.

I used to like his laugh as falls... and his voice that I still remember on my dreams...

I liked his back and the way it looked when walking...

I even liked the way he looked when he walked away from me...

Sometimes I wonder if I still like him... sometimes I wonder if the reasons I remember were enough...
  • Current Mood: Longing
  • Current Music: "Fine on the outside" by Priscilla Ahn

I miss you

It’s raining out there,
Say, will I see you again?
Or will I just dream with you everyday?
  • Current Location: Neverland
  • Current Mood: Longing
  • Current Music: "Sakura girl" by NewS

Impulses - Tegoshige Fanfic

Type: Fanfic
Fandom: Jpop, Boybands, Johnnys (JE), NEWS, TegoShige
Raiting: PG-13
Notes:This is my first time writing in english... it was fun. This is actually really old, I just translated it (somehow)... I'm not sure if it's good enough, but I'll let it go. The original in spanish: here

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I don’t know what is love. Neither do I wanna know… only thing I do comprehend is that whenever I’m with him, I feel happy. If it is right, if it is wrong… truth to be said, I don’t want to think about it, I’ve decided to let it go.
I see him walking slowly, spacing out on his cellphone: it’s new, he probably lost the other one or maybe, as often happens to him, it was destroyed on a strange and incredible situation.
“Did you change your number again?” I ask throwing a bottle with water that hits directly on his chest and he complains about the pain. “Sorry, wasn’t on purpose”, I’m lying of course, I wanted him to look at me and throwing the bottle was the action that got him to do it.
“Tegoshi” he says sighting, and I frown. He’s angry: “You always do whatever you want” he lectures me.
“Not always” I answer, containing the urge of getting him down on the couch by my side.  “Sometimes I’m mature enough to contain my impulses” specially in front of the magazine’s staff.
But someday I’ll stop being cautious. I’ll let go my impulses and force Shige to kiss me, no matter where we are.
  • Current Location: Yakushima
  • Current Mood: anxious anxious
  • Current Music: Stay by Rihanna

intro / guide to JE FANDOM

Originally posted by slants_of_light at intro / guide to JE FANDOM
Hello and welcome to the world of the JE fandoms!

This post will be a sort of introduction/guide that will hopefully teach new fans the proper ethics, process and basic knowledge that will be needed. My sister and I both decided to make one.. so here goes..

If you are absolutely new to the fandom, you might think that almost everything will be on youtube but as you go deeper into the fandom, you'll find youtube insufficient. You'll crawl through download links that might be floating around the net, and find some people having access to subbed files.

the subbed files. These are completely free and can be found inside lj by subbing communities. If you find someone asking for money in exchange for videos, they're scamming you.

Now i believe that new fans need to know the hard work placed in these subbed files. What you watch happily for about 30 minutes take, like, weeks to do.

so here's the whole process:
-Subbed videos originally come from raw providers. Raw providers get their videos from sometimes unknown sources or ripped from websites. The videos come in their raw form. Big, cumbersome, ts and with no translations.
-Next come the translators. These people translate the japanese into english or to another language. This takes a few days for veteran translators. And weeks for others.
-Next come the timers. Timers time the subs to the voices and words written on the screen, they do this line by line and by the millisecond.
-Next come the encoders. Good encoders are able to reduce the files to downloadable bite-sized pieces for other convenience while retaining the quality and sharpness of the video. They merge the subs to the raw files to make them hardsubs.

Don't ever forget that these set of people do these for absolutely no money. These people have real lives. They have real jobs or homework or lessons or stuff. They do these for free and during their free time. They don't earn money for subbing these videos. So new fans will do well to abide by the rules of the subbing communities. They are doing these stuff for free the least you can do follow their rules right? by following these communities rules, it shows that you respect them.

To access these files (raw and subbed) you will need to create a lj account. This lj account will be your golden ticket to all the goodies.

When we were starting we were fortunate enough to find a veteran in lj who had like an open community and subbed lots of videos, from there we crawled our way up. To be able to gain access to those veteran and highly respected community, you need to be active in lj. You need to prove that you are not just a leecher and that you are a genuine fan. It's not that hard. Join new fledgling communities for starters, Just a single post once in a while in lj would do, just like what you would normally do in twitter and such.

And if you're going to download a video from someone's lj account or community, it would be common courtesy to thank them in the comment box. This will also help the mods of the lj community keep track of the members.

Once the video is downloaded or you got hold of the download link. Please don't redistribute it elsewhere. If you have a friend who wants to watch the video, tell her of the community where you got it from.

WHY??? Just keep it in mind that basically what these community/individuals are doing here is not particularly legal, and japan's copyright laws are really tight. Communities are already toeing the line as it is and they are keeping these things as closed as possible. Mods and maintainers are always trying to keep things in check. We don't want this to spread like wildfire and we are keeping our head down so as not to attract attention. Redistributing subbed videos to streaming sites or earning money from the subbed videos are not allowed because they might attract attention.

Hell, communities don't ask for money for all their hardworks. Because if things go wrong, you won't be able to watch your beloved boys anymore, not unless you go to japan live there and learn their language. Now some new members might find these stuffs annoying, all these rules and stuff. But don't you think it's a small price to pay for enjoying free subbed videos that's always there?

So our darling new fans we hope we've told you everything you need to know.